He knew….like a wave of an ocean that he could not pursue, the eyes that can’t lie, no disguise through the blue.. knowing every look that left them had to be true, the heart being an organ you just..can not fight… being so pure to the soul ,an uncontrollable light, his defences unengaged was what led to this plight. Now his previous experiences that led to his pain, so he disengaged his heart and was controlled by his brain, there were meetings in his life he wished he could recompensed , possible love that could have been, if he lowered his defence, and not have the love has become his life’s penance. A night club in the city is where it all started , he left there in love and then broken hearted, See…you can have more than one child and still love them the same , but he fell in love with two women , but in that case it’s lame, this isn’t about what is wrong or what’s right , it’s when the emotion strikes down..just how do you fight? He just didn’t know how did the feelings begin, and worse he knows he wouldn’t like it if it happened to him, and he knows this scenario will never be a win win, This is not just a choice to pick one or the other, the one is your love, the other your child’s mother, The commitment was drawn when you made her your wife , and you love her for bringing your child into your life, now to be in this state life becomes such a mission, for your hearts unlike a hard drive.. you cannot just partition, so he calls the lady and there’s tear as they spoken, waking up in the morning with one half of his heart broken, being defensive emotionally..it gave him some relief, and over the time he got over the grief, years later he was told that the lady had died , so he drove on his own.. to the woods and he cried , and he said even though you now have departed, I will never forget for I’m still broken hearted.